Well... here I am.
Another darned lay-off.
A week after my husband had a stroke (and we have no health insurance).
Now... I could be a pessimist and say if I didn't have bad luck this year, I wouldn't have had any luck at all.
But... Stray's stroke was not as bad as it could have been, even with the frustrations he's having over the loss of use of his right hand (and he is a right hander). We've gotten a warning, and now we can be watchful, not caught so off guard as we were. And he walked away with just an Rx for an aspirin a day, with a lot of health concerns we were worried about eliminated (which confused the doctors, but... we seem to do that a lot...), and not all those costly scary pills that cause other health problems.
My layoff plops me into a convenient little pigeon hole that was a crack while I was working --- because I'm going to need some help to pay that hospital bill off! I wasn't qualified for any help while I was working. CT's, MRI's, sonograms, EKG's, Neurologists, Cardiologists, all sorts of 'gists... and just the bed in the hospital... YIKES!
But... I think I need to look at this as an opportunity. I have been granted some more time, for a little while, to concentrate on what really matters, and for the reason that I've been working so hard all these years.
Yeah, it's going to be a bit of a rough ride. But I always expected some rough patches in life, from the time I was very young. I can handle this, in spite of the worries and the tears I may shed in times when I'm not so sure and the anger I may express when I'm feeling life isn't fair (and unfortunately, it is very fair - just doesn't go my way all the time), but I *will* get through this.
We will get through this.
I just have to keep reminding myself that things could be worse, and I've got opportunities right under my nose to make this time count.
Sat Jan 17, 2009 3:56 am
I'm always at a loss for words when bad stuff happens. Hopefully things will be looking up for you soon though.